• 12:17 AM, Saturday, October 13, 2007
ok im bored n couldnt think of anything to do and dun wan to sleep so im here..random post ahead...
ok... firstly! IM SO GLAD THIS WEEK IS OVERRRRRR~!!! haha finally no more mid-sems~!! (forget the anatomy spot test (AGAIN) on week 10..) yay~! so right now i haf 2 more essays and one more anatomy spot test before exams come.. yay! haha happy happy.. but then again.. i got back my cell bio test and anatomy test results.. happy wif my cell bio results (in fact totally surpirsed) haha and anatomy? well... i can onli say... THE VET STUDENTS ARE REALLY TOO SMART.. seriously... u can tell the difference especially when u have worked with students from other courses... o wellll..
so! 4 more weeks of skool! n alice was juz telling us she was 5 weeks away from flying home.. haha ya ya time is passing so quickly.. funny i dun really feel it anymore.. it seems time is ticking by too slowly nowadays.. haixx... as usual its juz me.. y?
i still feel bad coz everyday alice n gang are still trying to convince me to stay.... haha yes.. i do feel bad i haf to leave u guys behind... sometimes i wonder to myself.. 'wat is the reason y ur feeling happier nowadays?' is it because i noe after this i will be able to go home? or is it becuase i haf gotten used to life here? i juz want to make sure.. make sure im doing the right thing..
went for dinner wif alice, geoffery and daniel todae.. alice asked us wat we wanna do if we din haf to consider any other things other than wat we are really interested in.. (as in ignoring career prospects, country of study, pay, availablity of money, schools etc) and something struck me...
haix.. i noe the more i think about it the more confusing it will get.. but u see.. i cant help it.. i doubt i will ever stop thinking about it up till the very end.. when i finally submit my withdrawal form to skool...
wat will happen in 10 years time? sometimes i wish i knew.. so i will noe which path to take.. but i noe it would never happen.. i haf to take a path and stick to it.. and make sure i am the best at it..
sally said its normal to feel scared.. that once u actually get wat u really wan.. u will always feel a little afraid of wat will happen.. so is this wat i really wan..? most importantly.. is this wat is really best for me..?
well.. this whole incident has taught me many many things..
that every mistake u make lets u learn something
that it is important to be confident of urself
that it is important to stick to decisions
that it is possible to haf no regrets in ur life because u can always turn regrets into precious lessons in life..
that sometimes.. u should really listen to ur heart.. ur gut feeling.. that little voice inside ur head.
that ur family is always ALWAYS the bestest people in the world..
that u shld never take things for granted.. specially ur family..
that good friends give u their support.. but true friends give u advice..
i noe im suppose to look forward. to have confidence. to trust myself for once.
but im really scared inside.
worried.
i wan to do well.
i need to do well.
not just well but VERY well.
because i dont wan anyone to look at me and say 'u shouldnt have done it' EVER
super random post..
btw.. ciao italia tiramitsu is the BEST EVER~!! XD lets go there again one day :D
but now i dun dare to sleep... thx to daniel.......... u n geoff better be studying these 2 days... haha!
sometimes i do wish i can stay on wif u guys... but most of the time.. my heart is a million miles away..
