• 2:10 PM, Sunday, September 23, 2007
i dunno if its a good thing.. but ive been feeling much better after realizing that i can go home to study after this semester.. i can feel myself smiling whenever i think bout it.. its been a looonggg time since things lyk this happened..sharon said it is good.. coz it means that i am happy about my decision of going back. thats true.. but i still feel bad sometimes.. lyk as if im the onli one around who is actaully happy about the decision..
i was actually still relatively undecided about this decision last week.. but now it juz seems even clearer..
the skool is opening an april/may 2008 intake. so im glad i wont haf to wait until aug/sep 2008 to start skool..
im sure my mum still wans me to think it through.. she asked if i needed to talk to anyone about it.. lyk some of the vets and stuff.. well.. i haf thought it through carefully and i am still thinking it through everyday.. at first when she asked me to talk to these pple.. i was quite.. reluctant.. but then i realized if i really think going back is the best choice.. it wouldnt matter.. because if they hear my story.. they too would make the decision i made.. and that would mean its a right decision.
i talked to denise too.. i din noe it till she was mentioned to me, that after almost 10 years of knowing each other.. her opinion still seem to affect me quite a bit.. in the end.. she told me to go ahead.. she said its good i realized it early.. she told me not to be lyk some of her frens who grad wif biotech diplomas but decided they dun lyk it and so had to start all over again..
in a way im so glad that so far every fren ive talked to about it is gifing me advice and is quite supportive of my decision.. but there are still certain pple out there whos opinion means the world to me.. and ive yet to get affirmation from them.. i guess thats wats holding me back..
at this point in time, i still really wan to study back home.. i debate about staying here n going back everyday.. and so far going back is still winning..
anymore kind souls out there willing to gif me advice...??
