• 9:14 PM, Monday, September 17, 2007
haix u noe.. sometimes i wonder.. is it a good thing that im the way i am..?i knew from since i was a kid that i cant n shldnt go overseas to study.. but i stupidly did.. y? lots of pple ask me that.. y, if u knew, did u go in the first place?
heres my story.. i first got the idea of studying vet in jc.. in my mind i thot.. well thats an interesting n good course, but id rather not go overseas.. after grad from j2, jiax went over to murdoch.. so as usual i was juz mentioning it to my mum.. n one day my mum happily decided that i shld apply for murdoch.. of coz i also applied for nus since i never planned to go overseas in the first place... my mum told me there was no harm trying.. n anyway i already had frens in perth.. so thinking that there really was no harm trying.. n the course is really interesting.. i applied..
pple who apply for overseas uni usually gets excited on when their letter of acceptance (or rejection) will arrive.. i dun remember even wondering about it.. n when i found out i was accepted.. somehow i wasnt really overjoyed.. but it seemed at that time that it would be stupid to gif up the opportunity.. i asked around.. n everyone told me i shld take the chance.. coz if i dun.. i will probably regret it.. n its true.. if i hadnt taken the chance.. i wouldnt haf known wat it would be lyk.. n part of me will probably keep thinking about 'y din i accept the offer?'
but now.. i noe.. i shld haf listened to my gut feeling..
i always knew i was family-oreintated.. but when ur family is always around.. u tend to take them for granted.. but it sux really.. some pple think im spoilt.. others say im lucky.. i think im neither.. coz im not going back because i noe my family will allow me to.. im going back because i wan to do something that i noe i can succeed in.. instead of something im on the verge of gifing up on everyday.. its true im lucky because i haf a choice.. because my family seems supportive.. even though i noe they r disappointed deep down.. but im not lucky because i had to go thru all this to realized wat everything means to me.. wat is important in life.. who i really am... but den again.. i am lucky... to haf realized all this..
i juz wish i know where to go from here..
sorry.. i dun think this post makes much sense....
